Wednesday, May 28, 2008

agitated mind

My mind is scattered and agitated...by all the details I have to attend to in the coming weeks. I realized that I cannot even listen to my favorite Buddhism podcast while driving. That was a surprising realization. I did not know I am so agitated. I did not know listening to something I consider casual requires a calm mind as well. I suppose I am good at making a list and checking items off as I go. Maybe I should really practice stay at the moment and focus on one thing at a time. What a time to truly test my Buddhism practice - most of the things that need to happen are out of my control. Sometimes I feel I am a control freak who likes to be always 200% prepared and 200% ready. Not this time for sure.

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